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Have I become numb to it all? Diario #3

So, if you've read up on past Diario posts you got to know some of what I am going through. As the headaches gone, it lightened slightly but not by much. I still haven't made an appointment. Why? Because, frankly, I'm not a big fan of doctors and they don't know how to deal with people with Chiari and what they deal with on a daily basis unless they're specialists that dealt with numerous chiarians.

I feel like having months of extreme headaches, it'll start tugging on your emotions, the proper way of reacting back to the conversation, thought processes, appetite, sleep cycle, and etc. I've started to notice this. I haven't been me. I feel like I have to act it out or fake it, the real emotions I'm having at that current moment to what I was like. I'm not the superficial high maintained woman. If I had to compared my person to a celebrity personality, it would be be crossover between Johnny Depp, Ellen Degeneras, and a small hence of Queen Latifa. So yea I'm a pretty laid back girl who likes to have some fun and speaks her mind.

But, after months of what feels like agony and not feeling myself, I ask myself one question. Have I become numb to it all? I just don't knows how to talk to people anymore even though I know my friends and family and what they like to do. Can I get out of this agony and numbness? It's possible. I know for a fact I'm not depressed, I've been there I hated it. It's hard to fight it and become a normal self.

A Look into the Unknown

There are many things in this world that cannot be explained or yet explored. Yet, the sciences and math probabilities are able to explain some of the things going on but not all. Could it explain what is in the deepest depths of the ocean, what about the strange space, earth, and human anomalies, why we can't explain cold cases or missing person cases that are never reopened, what happens when something or someone goes through a black hole in space (hypothetically speaking), and etc? There's so many questions left to be answered.

It's an exploration race of knowledge beyond our capabilities which we are slowly learning more about and who knows what point of time it will take us to get there. It seems like there are a lot of dark subjects that haven't been shown the light of day and dedication to be worked into so we know the Earth and Space more and what we are capable of. It seems like there maybe a lot of curious minded people who are wondering about what the future holds and the mysteries and tales of the past, present and future.

What will the future hold? Will we discover what lies in the parts unknown and the tales of our own planet?

Dear those who left me out

Hello to those who left me out,

You may remember me as that one person during school, ages ago, the one who you may want to have around on occasion. That one friend who you always put on the back-burner but never made time to make friends with. You seem to have wanted me when only you wanted me to get you something or borrow something. I don’t have a money tree. I tried putting my time and efforts forth into being yours but nothing back. It can get old with my time and effort and patience.

You think I was the person who was “quiet”, “shy”, or “anti-social” but have you actually tried to get to know me? I didn’t think so. You were busy with your life just like I was. We all have our own lives to live and things to achieve. We aren’t getting any younger and changing as life goes on. I am not as that “quiet, shy or anti-social” as you think.

You might of called me a friend while we were never together. So, how could we call ourselves friends if were never together?

I am doing just fine! Thanks for asking. I hope you are doing just as well?

I am finishing up the last leg of college and trying to find some work. Also, trying to fight an invisible illness from making me from not wanting to do much in life. But hey, conquering one thing at a time. I am figuring out who I am and trying to find my right path in life.

So, I think it was good that we have parted our own ways a while ago. We’ve been exploring the world or communities we live in and finding ourselves. But, it’s a small world we may make up time lost but you never know maybe it may or may not be just as well.

Live Long And Prosper

And hope we both find the right paths in life.

I hope it ends up just as well

From,

A person who needed someone around

Lost Time Forgotten

 

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Picture taken by UnSilentTheSilence (2014)

It seems as time goes on we sometimes forget about what we leave behind. Somethings we remember as well as somethings well forgetful. How can that be?

Somethings we remember because it maybe traumatic that may affected so many lives. Examples of remembrance would be like some extreme acts of Mother Nature and wars9-11,  Berlin Wall, Pearl Harbor, Chernobyl and the Concentration Camps.

    Some things we tend to forget or leave behind. What about the abandoned land, property, businesses, homes, and other types of property and could it become in use? What about the events throughout history? What about the asylums? What about those who live in poverty? What about those who don’t have access to everyday needs? Did (insert event/promise/help/etc here) ever happen or is going to happen? It seems like we tend to forget those things that may have a dark history to it. A dark history when there was experimentations going on, maybe some inhuman things, or even the turn-of-the-century was changing.

The questions are:
How can we bring back what is forgotten?
Is the forgotten gone for a purpose or accidental reasoning?
Is the forgotten gone because we just “forgotten” about it?
How could we just “forget” what is just forgotten?
Could we have done things differently?
Should we just leave history be history?
Could we change the future history for the better?
And so many more to ask…………………………………………..

Trans-Allegheny Lunatic Asylum Visual Presentation

Trans-Allegheny Lunatic Asylum, Weston, West Virginia

The Asylum is second largest hand carved stone structure in the world compared to the largest is the Kremlin in Moscow, Russia.

You may wonder what types of history belongs inside. You may imagine back when it was in use, it may have had a dark past. From various treatments and medications to overpopulation of patients and other variables.

Weston Hospital Main Building: National Historic Landmark 1990
Antique Vehicle
Traditional Uniforms/Gowns worn
Antiques gathered

Something tells me you can still feel the history of this place

Back in the day, this room used to control all of Weston’s calls
Restoration of the Asylum is coming along nicely

Balcony view above the main door

Auditorium
Upper view of the auditorium

Solitary

Clock Tower through skyline
Roof through one of the 4th floor

Sense of the World

Hello World,

Have you ever wondered about your senses? Throughout time, we all known of our five senses. People may lost some senses through medical, accidents, trauma, work, serving in the military, or other reasons that may of caused them to go away. Some wonder what it may be like if you don’t have one of the senses or what if you have extra or enhanced senses?

Some may wish they don’t have certain senses due to whatever the case may be.

But, what if you have enhanced or extra senses? Some might say to have enhanced senses, you might to be on drugs to make you feel like that. But, what if it’s like the James Cameron’s Avatar (2009) movie when the Avatars can feel all of the energy around them. From the land, animals, people, mother nature, and among other things.

If we could feel all the aspects of the world, wouldn’t we know how to take care of the world we live in. Our world would become more healthier, animal and plant population would rise (if the animals and plants are on the watch-list or verge of extinction), and the natural resources would slowly restore, if the source has not fully depleted already.

Imagine having clean water, air, no pollution, no droughts, and an all around thriving environment. That means people would be able to have more access to a healthier lifestyle and to be able to have more access to food.

  • How can we get more peoples attention to get the world to become a better, healthier and environmentally-sound place to live in?
  • How can one destroy the Earth so quickly?
  • Does not one think about the inhabitants within and the health factors it may cause?
  • Does not one think of the inhabitants lifestyle it may affect?
  • How well do you know of all the factors of the Earths and inhabitants ways that could cause potential good or bad for the future?
  • Would the world eventually be restored?
  • Or, would the world turn into some apocalyptic, survivalist system?
  • Would there be wars over the basic needs for life?

There are so many questions out there for the curious minds.

What do you think of the sense of the world?

The Encountress

Throughout time, there are just things that are just unexplainable. People may combined all the oddities to the subject of the paranormal or the strange and unusual.

Sometimes, people are more attracted to the paranormal or strange and unusual. But, how much can one person be attracted to this? Is it one or up to a few chances to experience these happenings?

Some people don’t have experience anything at all while others may experience a lot. From talking to people or reading/seeing vlogs/ blogs, and etc., people just may experience things once to a lot.

For me, I’ve noticed a lot ever since I was young. Just things like the unexplained. From the 3 dark monk figures, “Distraught Mediterranean Man” which is a Mediterranean looking male in his mid 20’s-30’s with caramel skin/black short rough hair covered in mud, blood, and dirt with full black eyes, the Central-Asian man with all black eyes, multiple accounts with the “hat man”, snickering ghost children, old man with the top hat (experienced at an old gothic-styled asylum), long-vailed nun or nurse (experienced at an old gothic-styled asylum),  bathtub dummy with eyelids shut with “eyes” showing (experienced at an old gothic-styled asylum), “Jason” (from the horror movie) figure in the field, living dreams, de ja vu and of course the white shadow/cloud following.

These are the some of the more strangest things that are listed in the paragraph above. Some are re-occurring a lot compared to others.

Can anyone help me explain to me these occurrences and odd behaviors of the unknown?

Is it some sort of riddle of sorts? Is it something that I should be worried about?