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The Functional Unfunctionalist type of Day | Diario #2

Well, thanks to those who liked my post via Facebook, Twitter, Google+ or WordPress.

Today, was mostly good. Worked ten hours. I was able to do everything that the day brought. But at the same time my mind was like no you are not going to concentrate, be spacey, make your vision brighter, make your body feel cold, and everything will seem to be like you're on the ocean waves going back and forth. So, I felt pretty unfunctional while I was be functional all of today.

My body thinks I'm fully awake and want to do things but this awful constant headache that I've been having for a month or so is telling me to do something about it (as in to lay down, take medicine, and sleep or go to the doctors). I also hate taking medication because you can get addicted to just about anything.

I like working. I don't know what I would do if I didn't work. I'm not some sort of mental case that can't work. I'm capable of anything. Look at all the successful people who may have something wrong with them but it didn't stop them like Stephen Hawking, Stevie Wonder and Helen Keller.

Well, before I start rambling word vomit about why people are capable of things even if they have inner demons and what not. I just want to update you on how my day is going. I'll probably fall asleep later on and relax.

Dear those who left me out

Hello to those who left me out,

You may remember me as that one person during school, ages ago, the one who you may want to have around on occasion. That one friend who you always put on the back-burner but never made time to make friends with. You seem to have wanted me when only you wanted me to get you something or borrow something. I don’t have a money tree. I tried putting my time and efforts forth into being yours but nothing back. It can get old with my time and effort and patience.

You think I was the person who was “quiet”, “shy”, or “anti-social” but have you actually tried to get to know me? I didn’t think so. You were busy with your life just like I was. We all have our own lives to live and things to achieve. We aren’t getting any younger and changing as life goes on. I am not as that “quiet, shy or anti-social” as you think.

You might of called me a friend while we were never together. So, how could we call ourselves friends if were never together?

I am doing just fine! Thanks for asking. I hope you are doing just as well?

I am finishing up the last leg of college and trying to find some work. Also, trying to fight an invisible illness from making me from not wanting to do much in life. But hey, conquering one thing at a time. I am figuring out who I am and trying to find my right path in life.

So, I think it was good that we have parted our own ways a while ago. We’ve been exploring the world or communities we live in and finding ourselves. But, it’s a small world we may make up time lost but you never know maybe it may or may not be just as well.

Live Long And Prosper

And hope we both find the right paths in life.

I hope it ends up just as well

From,

A person who needed someone around

What is it like having sensory overload?

Sensors are your 5 senses; sight, taste, hearing, touch, and smell. Having these senses, we take for granted everyday. But, what if you are having a sensory-overload?

Sensory-overload is not the best feeling in the world from personal experience. You are probably wondering what causes sensory-overload? Which could be just about anything like a side effect of medication, symptoms of some disorders or illnesses, headaches, or numerous of other things.

In my experience, sensory-overload is not the best feeling in the world. I do have an invisible illness which could be a symptom that appears every so often. Usually, when there is an overload for me it is mostly effects the sensors of sight and hearing. Those sensors seems to be more ambient and bright, almost neon colors and more ambient sounds like the noises are coming through of what seems like a old-styled loudspeaker. If I am going through these sensory-overloads for a long period of time, I would feel like I would be on the verge of crying and being sick, body-overheating, and on the verge of a migraine or actually having a migraine. On occasion, if feel like I would want to pass out from it. Sometimes, I would cry just how bad it is. If I can’t tell if I am having an overload and would start to cry for no reason. Then, if I happen to get home, I would most likely want to sleep or get away from all the bright light and loud noises for the majority of the day or the remainder of the day.

Only a few people has ever seen me go through this sensory overload. It is like self-torture if a person is going through this, if it is dragged out for a long distance of time,at least for me it is. If it dragged out, it feels like my mind is making things want to go into emergency shut down mode and you trying to fight it until you are able to get away from it.

But, it is always good to figure out what exactly causes these symptoms are for you. It is different for everyone. So make sure you ask a medical professional first and hopefully, it’ll get under control or fixed.