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Have I become numb to it all? Diario #3

So, if you've read up on past Diario posts you got to know some of what I am going through. As the headaches gone, it lightened slightly but not by much. I still haven't made an appointment. Why? Because, frankly, I'm not a big fan of doctors and they don't know how to deal with people with Chiari and what they deal with on a daily basis unless they're specialists that dealt with numerous chiarians.

I feel like having months of extreme headaches, it'll start tugging on your emotions, the proper way of reacting back to the conversation, thought processes, appetite, sleep cycle, and etc. I've started to notice this. I haven't been me. I feel like I have to act it out or fake it, the real emotions I'm having at that current moment to what I was like. I'm not the superficial high maintained woman. If I had to compared my person to a celebrity personality, it would be be crossover between Johnny Depp, Ellen Degeneras, and a small hence of Queen Latifa. So yea I'm a pretty laid back girl who likes to have some fun and speaks her mind.

But, after months of what feels like agony and not feeling myself, I ask myself one question. Have I become numb to it all? I just don't knows how to talk to people anymore even though I know my friends and family and what they like to do. Can I get out of this agony and numbness? It's possible. I know for a fact I'm not depressed, I've been there I hated it. It's hard to fight it and become a normal self.

The Functional Unfunctionalist type of Day | Diario #2

Well, thanks to those who liked my post via Facebook, Twitter, Google+ or WordPress.

Today, was mostly good. Worked ten hours. I was able to do everything that the day brought. But at the same time my mind was like no you are not going to concentrate, be spacey, make your vision brighter, make your body feel cold, and everything will seem to be like you're on the ocean waves going back and forth. So, I felt pretty unfunctional while I was be functional all of today.

My body thinks I'm fully awake and want to do things but this awful constant headache that I've been having for a month or so is telling me to do something about it (as in to lay down, take medicine, and sleep or go to the doctors). I also hate taking medication because you can get addicted to just about anything.

I like working. I don't know what I would do if I didn't work. I'm not some sort of mental case that can't work. I'm capable of anything. Look at all the successful people who may have something wrong with them but it didn't stop them like Stephen Hawking, Stevie Wonder and Helen Keller.

Well, before I start rambling word vomit about why people are capable of things even if they have inner demons and what not. I just want to update you on how my day is going. I'll probably fall asleep later on and relax.

Introdución

Hello,

So anyway, I have decided to write this because I would like to create this in a way that people would understand those who are going through some sort of mental illness or inner demons that are not seen on the outside. This does not mean that we are horrible people or some mental person because we can a part of normal societies way.

To start off, I am fighting an illness called Chiari Malformation type 1. It’s where the brain tonsils are longer than the average persons. I have had once got treatment when I was first diagnosed around a few years ago but was released from treatment because I felt like I was back to my normal self and felt happy.

Now, skip to present day. About a month or so ago, things started to get worse. Top symptom is headaches which feels like a 5 ton layer of bricks are laying on the back of my head, cannot concentrate, parts of my body goes to sleep more often than normal and feels constantly numb, spacey, sleep schedule is messed up, panic attacks, some personality changes, appetite change, and certain lighting and combination of noises are starting to bug me.I haven’t seen the medics about why things are acting up again. I figured that the symptoms would just go away.

But unfortunately, it has not gone away. I really should go see the medics because I don’t like what my body is doing to me and starting to feel not myself. I am still able to drive, go to school, work, and etc. I will keep you posted, if you like I can make this a daily posting? Comment down below to let me know what your opinions are and if you want this to be a daily post.

 

Not Just One Life Matters But All Lives Matter

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                             From Dailymail.co.uk @AngélicaDass                       http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3074282/Angelica-Dass-attempts-photograph-shade-human-skin-world-hopes-creating-discussion-platform-identity.html

We are all human, living all on one planet, and living together to hopefully make the world a better place or at least we try to.

 

 Throughout history, there are rough and ugly patches that were recorded and will be  remembered for future references. But, we seem to question why these events happened. There maybe significant clues to why some events happened or started while others may never be known and some were just a part of one’s culture. Some examples of some rough and ugly patches of history would be segregation/separation, slavery, maltreatment practices, unsafe working conditions, concentration camps, stigmatization, and so much more.

 

In recent years, people are wanting to spread awareness that black/white/lgbtq+/religion/…….. (list goes on and on) lives matter in peaceful to unpeaceful manner (depending on circumstances on that point in time and person).

 

But, it’s not just about one specific life matters. We get that you and others have concerns about where you belong and want to share it with the world and hopefully to make a change or spark of something. It may spark others to join in.

 

Is it a part of a revolution or fad? How far are you willing to go? Has it started to become too extreme, is it just started to stir the pot, or still on the low end of the spectrum? 

 

What about all lives matter? We all matter in this world. We all want a fair world with equality. No hate just love, no worries be happy, and we do what we can.

 

Aside from the negatives throughout history, there are positives. We have figured out what to fix or not to do in future history. We have revolutionized the medical field so we could save more lives and to have a longer lifespan, create technology that doesn’t use nonrenewable resources, start of buckling down on security measures so citizens could live in a safe society, working on trade routes and other countries relations, and the list continues.

 

We as humans, we just want the best for us. But, how far are you willing to go to change the mindset of those who are wanting to stuck with traditional ways? Although traditions can be a good thing, it shows what we were brought up on. But times are changing and the human population is growing. We have to accommodate everyone of Earths citizens. We shall not leave one struggle and be left behind.

 

There is a topic of stigmas. Yea, there stigmas attached to every single topic. Stigmas can hold us back. Stigmas could affect people in being able get employment, education, travel, help of any kind, food and water, and etc. So stop stigmatizing all together, it is not helping anyone.

 

If we are not willing to help our neighbors, why bother in what we’re trying to do. There are a lot of corruption. Corruption are those who may be those of the greedy and toxic people. Those people think mostly of themselves. We don’t need them to fight for us and to think they actually “know” what is good for us.

 

We need those who are willing to help us that are pure and actually wanting to help to be there for citizens. We should be there for our fellow neighbors. We shall leave no one behind or struggle. ALLLIVESMATTER, not just one. We ARE ALL THE SAME. We all may have different skin tones and genders. and/or be a part of different religions/other groups/labels but we are the same; HUMAN. Being a part of these different things does NOT separate us, make us a sub-human of each other or other classification. We are all the same level of species, no need of arguing about it. We should be proud we are human. We should live in pride and celebrate how far we have accomplished so far and live to our full happiness and no worries.

 

Remember to BE KIND and LOVE ONE ANOTHER.

 

I’m Only Human by Rag’n’bone Man (2017)

 

[Intro]
I’m only human
I’m only, I’m only
I’m only human, human
[Verse 1]
Maybe I’m foolish, maybe I’m blind
Thinking I can see through this and see what’s behind
Got no way to prove it, so maybe I’m lying
[Refrain]
But I’m only human after all
I’m only human after all
Don’t put your blame on me
Don’t put your blame on me
[Verse 2]
Take a look in the mirror and what do you see?
Do you see it clearer, or are you deceived
In what you believe?
[Refrain]
‘Cause I’m only human after all
You’re only human after all
Don’t put the blame on me
Don’t put your blame on me
[Chorus]
Some people got the real problems
Some people out of luck
Some people think I can solve them
Lord heavens above
I’m only human after all
I’m only human after all
Don’t put the blame on me
Don’t put the blame on me
[Verse 3]
Don’t ask my opinion, don’t ask me to lie
Then beg for forgiveness for making you cry
Making you cry
[Refrain]
‘Cause I’m only human after all
I’m only human after all
Don’t put your blame on me
Don’t put the blame on me
[Chorus]
Some people got the real problems
Some people out of luck
Some people think I can solve them
Lord heavens above
I’m only human after all
I’m only human after all
Don’t put the blame on me
Don’t put the blame on me
I’m only human; I make mistakes
I’m only human, that’s all it takes
To put the blame on me
Don’t put the blame on me
[Bridge]
I’m no prophet or Messiah
You should go looking somewhere higher
[Chorus]
I’m only human after all
I’m only human after all
Don’t put the blame on me
Don’t put the blame on me
I’m only human, I do what I can
I’m just a man, I do what I can
Don’t put the blame on me
Don’t put your blame on me

 

Lost Time Forgotten

 

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Picture taken by UnSilentTheSilence (2014)

It seems as time goes on we sometimes forget about what we leave behind. Somethings we remember as well as somethings well forgetful. How can that be?

Somethings we remember because it maybe traumatic that may affected so many lives. Examples of remembrance would be like some extreme acts of Mother Nature and wars9-11,  Berlin Wall, Pearl Harbor, Chernobyl and the Concentration Camps.

    Some things we tend to forget or leave behind. What about the abandoned land, property, businesses, homes, and other types of property and could it become in use? What about the events throughout history? What about the asylums? What about those who live in poverty? What about those who don’t have access to everyday needs? Did (insert event/promise/help/etc here) ever happen or is going to happen? It seems like we tend to forget those things that may have a dark history to it. A dark history when there was experimentations going on, maybe some inhuman things, or even the turn-of-the-century was changing.

The questions are:
How can we bring back what is forgotten?
Is the forgotten gone for a purpose or accidental reasoning?
Is the forgotten gone because we just “forgotten” about it?
How could we just “forget” what is just forgotten?
Could we have done things differently?
Should we just leave history be history?
Could we change the future history for the better?
And so many more to ask…………………………………………..

Trans-Allegheny Lunatic Asylum Visual Presentation

Trans-Allegheny Lunatic Asylum, Weston, West Virginia

The Asylum is second largest hand carved stone structure in the world compared to the largest is the Kremlin in Moscow, Russia.

You may wonder what types of history belongs inside. You may imagine back when it was in use, it may have had a dark past. From various treatments and medications to overpopulation of patients and other variables.

Weston Hospital Main Building: National Historic Landmark 1990
Antique Vehicle
Traditional Uniforms/Gowns worn
Antiques gathered

Something tells me you can still feel the history of this place

Back in the day, this room used to control all of Weston’s calls
Restoration of the Asylum is coming along nicely

Balcony view above the main door

Auditorium
Upper view of the auditorium

Solitary

Clock Tower through skyline
Roof through one of the 4th floor

Sense of the World

Hello World,

Have you ever wondered about your senses? Throughout time, we all known of our five senses. People may lost some senses through medical, accidents, trauma, work, serving in the military, or other reasons that may of caused them to go away. Some wonder what it may be like if you don’t have one of the senses or what if you have extra or enhanced senses?

Some may wish they don’t have certain senses due to whatever the case may be.

But, what if you have enhanced or extra senses? Some might say to have enhanced senses, you might to be on drugs to make you feel like that. But, what if it’s like the James Cameron’s Avatar (2009) movie when the Avatars can feel all of the energy around them. From the land, animals, people, mother nature, and among other things.

If we could feel all the aspects of the world, wouldn’t we know how to take care of the world we live in. Our world would become more healthier, animal and plant population would rise (if the animals and plants are on the watch-list or verge of extinction), and the natural resources would slowly restore, if the source has not fully depleted already.

Imagine having clean water, air, no pollution, no droughts, and an all around thriving environment. That means people would be able to have more access to a healthier lifestyle and to be able to have more access to food.

  • How can we get more peoples attention to get the world to become a better, healthier and environmentally-sound place to live in?
  • How can one destroy the Earth so quickly?
  • Does not one think about the inhabitants within and the health factors it may cause?
  • Does not one think of the inhabitants lifestyle it may affect?
  • How well do you know of all the factors of the Earths and inhabitants ways that could cause potential good or bad for the future?
  • Would the world eventually be restored?
  • Or, would the world turn into some apocalyptic, survivalist system?
  • Would there be wars over the basic needs for life?

There are so many questions out there for the curious minds.

What do you think of the sense of the world?